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| IF YOUR FRIEND WAS DYING, HURTING THEMSELVES TO GET THROUGH THE DAILY PAIN, CRYING AT NIGHT BECAUSE THEIR FEAR OF SOLITUDE IS COMING TRUE. WOULD YOU EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE?, WOULD YOU TYPE THEM A LETTER?, WOULD YOU SAY ANYTHING TO THEM AT ALL.... OR JUST LET THEM CONTINUE AND SAY THAT THEY SHOULD HANDLE IT THEMSELVES? A WEEK LATER, YOU WAKE UP AND SEE EVERYTHING, AND GETTHE PHONE CALL THAT YOUR FRIEND KILLED THEMSELF BECAUSE NO ONE WAS THERE TO STOP THEM OR TELL THEM THAT THEY WERE GOOD ENOUGH.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO TO SAVE THEIR LIFE? | | |
| Case #2-- I've found out the guys job, and some of his past. believe it or not he is a Security Guard/Cop. I guess. About two nights ago... some thing (I dont remember) reminded him of his ex-girlfriend. He told me that he sat with his pistol to his head for about 15 minutes. I started talking to him and thinking of every true reason I could think of for him not to hurt himself or just to shoot himself in the head. If you are EVER in a position like this.... I would think that it is ok to say something that may be a little untrue to save their life. But I tried everyway not to lie to this guy... because what I said is what he is and he should be proud of who he is today. he just didnt think that he could live life with her not there with him, and with those memories burned into his memory... of witch thats exactly how they are. He eventually put away his pistol and was calming down I guess. then he had to get offline to get redy for work or to sleep. the next day I talked to him and he was thanking me a hundred times. I asked what happend at work and he said that a mother was not watching their child, and she wanderd off. She walked into the middle of the road and almost got hit by a truck, but he saw her just a couple of seconds and grabbed her. He said that if I havent convinced him not to commit scuicide that night that he wouldnt have been able to save that child. Case #1- The girlfriend's mother called the boyfriend's parents that night at like 6:00am and started bitching out the parents saying "Look what your son is doing to my daughter!" Of witch I dont think anybody can make another person cut them self... especially over the phone. I talked to the girlfriend's friend today and she is the one telling me all of this. The girlfriend ran away from home yesterday night and took her dad's cell phone. A couple of hours afterwards her mom was calling the phone, im not shure if she knew that her daughter had it or not. the girl was freaking out because she thought her mom knew and found out. She went to the friend's boyfriends house and stayed the night there! the friend was pissed that the girlfriend was at her boyfriens house and said that if she stayed another night that she would break up with him. She also tried to call her mother to tell her where the girlfriend was but she never picked up her phone. Me and a couple of other people dont think that she is doing this completely for the main reason why other people would be doing these things. I dont really know this girl so I cant really even make any suggested conclusions. the boyfriend however... I havent heard of him since the first night this all came about. The girlfriend's parents broke the two people up becasue they found out what htheir daughter was doing and why. Hell I would too if I found out! I still dont understand why he would let her do something like that to herself when he says that he loves her soo much. And my head is just spinning with different things of how the boyfriend is taking this... because I am a friend of his. | | |
| We shall call THIS case... CASE #2!-->I sent a friend that I started talking to this page after I was done typing what I typed below. He was very interested and said he could help me out also. He too was SI'ing, but... he was also 23 years old. He says he has done it since he was 16. Just imagine... you are dating the most perfect person you could ever find for yourself... been dating for almost a year... what do you think you could feel for this person? Now... imagine you watching that person get beat, and raped, and shot in the chest... right infront of your own eyes... because you were hopeless in every way to save them. I think that was the main trigger start in this man's SI case. Again at 19 years old, going home from school, crossing a 4 way intersection and being ran over while on your motorcycle, with your helmet breaking in 3 different parts. Yet, you awake from acoma 3 days later and still alive with nothing broken. He says it slowed down after that for awile... but then gained back up to SI'ing 2-3 times a day almost. I wasn't able to get alot of information because I had to get offline, and wasn't able to get back on before he left for work. About the first case, the girlfreind indeed took 21 pills, but they were perscription, and no one rememberd what they were. The girl refused to throw them up, but I think she is okay now. Her mom did find out that she cut herself and yelled at her about it. The friend that was at the house with her took the girl's pills from in her closet. Where she had thrown them. The friend says that the girlfreind thought they were arguing and that the freind was mad at her so she reached for her pills again... but couldn't find them. The friend just thinks she is a drama queen and she is beginning to get sick of it. I havent spoken to the boyfriend in 24 hours. I may try to call his cell phone later on in the afternoon. We shall call this CASE #1! To keep track of everything. I may have found a CASE #3, but I will share more about that one later, if the girl accepts to talk to me about it. I have sent her this URL, hopefully understanding what im asking to do. | | |
| Alright well I guess im going to start using this damn shit again. My class progect about SI came into use. Connor told me about a cut website before I started again and ive looked at all the pictures on there. Was discusted by some amazingly... My class project for my reading class was to use any subject we wanted and do a report about it! I choose SI. (self-injury) That knowledge of everything that I have studied before came into use tonight, wich it is about 5:19 am now. One of my really REALLy good azz friends came to a near death experience at 11:00 pm on the date I dont know I was stupid enough not to make shure not to put it on there. He thought he upset me and took 4,800 mg of pain medicine. Ill think about putting the conversation up. But im not giving the names of anyone who was listed in it... you guys are not that lucky. Back to my point of my writing, a friend wanted to make a cd with a whole buncha love songs on it for his girlfreind. I thought that was soo genorous of him and proud of him. But then I had to find out the whole story. A boy who will be a SEINOR in high school next year and I think hes about 17 years old. He has been cutting and doing SI since he was 11. His beautiful, outgoing girlfreind (of witch I knew she was I met her), has been SI'ing for 2 years alredy. The boyfreind was so experienced by the time he is at his current age now he knows more than probebly anyone you know who does the same or doesnt. The two of them share this and use it as a way to connect sometimes as I understand so far. What I didnt understand is that when the boy was asking for songs to make a cd she says that his girlfriend had cut herself and taken 21 pills. Pills of that he didnt know what they were wich is more devestating than knowing what they really are. There was no way of getting intouch with his girlfreind. There was someone staying the night with her though... a friend. But the friend is also an SI addict! From the scars I have seen on the wrist of her left arm. Of witch those same exact cuts have appeard on my little sister's arm in the same pattern recently. What I especially didnt understand was that... if he says he loves this girl so much.. and that if she dies tonight he would follow her into the darkness, then why would he let her continue to hurt herself? Why wouldnt he tell her, or help her in any way. He has said to know other people that do it now, and I just can't help but think why isnt he doing anything to help these other people? Im starting to think that I am studying other people's problem and trying to help them, therefore ill stop thinking about myne. Hopefully I will. I believe the boy practcally begged for some help... and not like help he had gotten in the past. Help HIM, help what he had... and to do that you have to know and ask questions. He went to bed for the night witch is good so he wont be worrying about anything. And I am now calm from sharing and typing. this is now a project for me... make shure to check back. :) | | |
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